Saturday, September 8, 2012

Songs of My Brother

Kenny Chesney has a song called "I Go Back". It's about how hearing a certain song can take your mind back to a certain place or time. There are so many songs that take me on a trip back in time with my brother, Trevor. Tomorrow will be 15 years since he passed away. Music plays such a huge part in my memories of him. When you lose someone, memories are what get you through the pain of losing them. Even the most insignificant memories, become big memories. Even the things that may have been aggravating or even the things that may have made you mad, become treasured moments. You wrap those memories up like fragile glass and store them in your mind and in your heart. These are the songs that remind me of HIM, not his death, but his life. These are the memories I have stored in my heart.... In Kenny's words "Everytime I hear that song, I go back".

Alvin and the Chipmunks "Christmas Don't Be Late"-http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bzN_WOKC8rk. This song takes me back to Christmas in July when we were kids. Trevor loved this tape so much he played it over and over and over again. Even in July, yes I said July. It was annoying! It drove us crazy! But he loved it. I can't hear it now without going back to our living room in the trailer that was off the road on 55. Of course nowadays I usually only hear it at Christmas time! :)

Eddy Grant "Electric Avenue"-http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IuwxZSIS__4. All 3 of us kids loved this song. I remember yelling the lyrics as I was jumping into our swimming pool. This song continues to provide laughs to us. You see, Trevor added another line to the song. He insisted it was actually in the song, it wasn't.  He said the song said "We gonna rock down to Electric Avenue and then we'll take it higher. In the Country". And his "In the Country" was a twangy shrill sounding mess! So, we did what we always did and made fun of him. I think this may have triggered his rage the day he decided to pick up a hatchet and chase us with it. Luckily, Travis and I were faster runners than him, so we got away, found a good hiding place and lived to tell about it. I really think he was mad enough to use that hatchet on us that day!

Michael Jackson "Thriller"- http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hG6oy46qKE4. Trevor was terrified of this song. Vincent Price's talking part just about sent him over the edge. So, what did Travis and I do? We played it over and over again. We were mean!

AC/DC "Big Balls"-http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gJ3tqIukBKg. We found Dad's 8-track tapes. This song made us giggle hysterically! My mom didn't see the humor in little Trevor going around singing about having big balls. She also didn't think it was funny when we found the Cheech and Chong 8-track tape. Especially when we repeated it word for word!

Da Bears "Super Bowl Shuffle"-http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=F-Smh4_tXOM. It PAINS me to admit this, especially since the Colts season opener is against the Bears tomorrow, but, we loved this song! This song not only reminds me of Trevor, but also my Memaw. It got big around the time we were going to Michigan that year. Memaw hated this song, but she knew how much we loved it, so she let us listen to it everytime it came on in the car, which was a lot at that time! Of course, she complained the whole time it was on, but she left it on for us. She was right, it was a stupid song! GO COLTS!!!

Hanson "MMMBop"- http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NHozn0YXAeE.This song just about caused World War 3 between Trevor, Ryan and Allen one time. No, Trevor did NOT like this song! Hated it! Despised it! And the younger boys loved it. Yes, Ryan Dill, the biggest music critic I know, listened to Hanson! Trevor finally got sick of hearing it, so he stole the CD and hid it. Sharon walked into screaming, yelling and total chaos. I was standing the kitchen tuning it all out. Frankly, the screaming and yelling was better than listening to MMMBop one more time!

When Trevor hit the teenage years, we didn't quite see eye to eye on music. I was more into hip hop/R&B and he had started listening to Grunge/Alternative. I found that stuff quite annoying at the time and since he knew I was annoyed, he played them over and over again. I guess that's payback for torturing him with Thriller. The following were the worst!

Presidents of the United States "Peaches"- http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VvcohzJvviQ. I mean, Really who sings about peaches! Dumb!

Weezer "The Sweater Song"-http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LHQqqM5sr7g. Another dumb song! Who writes a song about a sweater????

Weezer "Buddy Holly"-http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kemivUKb4f4. He used to sing this one to Bryson. Only he changed the lyrics to "Ooh-we-Ooh, I look just like Uncle Trevor". Thinking of that just makes me smile!

Nirvana "Smells Like Teen Spirit"- http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hTWKbfoikeg. Trevor loved Nirvana. I couldn't understand what they were saying.Heck, I still can't understand what they are saying! The last gift I ever bought for Trevor was a Nirvana t-shirt. Jordan has it now. He shares a little bit of his Uncle Trevor's music tastes!

Green Day "When I Come Around"-http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=i8dh9gDzmz8. Actually I secretly liked this song, but their album was called "Dookie" and I just couldn't like a band that called their album "Dookie"!

Beck "Loser"- http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YgSPaXgAdzE. He taught Bryson to sing this song. I didn't laugh. My little blond haired, blue eyed two year walking around singing "I'm a loser baby, so why don't you kill me" was bothersome! Trevor thought it was sooooo freaking funny!

Even though I hated these songs at the time, if I hear them come on the radio, I crank them right up and sing along. All except for Nirvana, I still crank it up, but I don't sing along since I still don't know what they are saying! I am usually grinning from ear to ear. They make me think of my little brother. On occasion, they have triggered some tears. Yes, "I'm a loser baby, so why don't you kill me" has made me cry once or twice.

The other songs have been silly or funny reminders of my brother. This next one is a different story. This song  brings me pride. Everytime I hear this song it takes me back to Parris Island, South Carolina on October 18, 1996. That was the day Trevor graduated from boot camp. I can not express how proud I was of him that day. I saw a Trevor I had never seen before. He was proud and confident. I loved seeing him like this. And when I hear this song, it normally brings me to tears. Not sad tears, but it fills me with pride and takes me right back to that day. Semper Fi!
 I love you and miss you so much little brother!

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